Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Its Different This Time

Things between us got better now.
We text, we talk, we walk together,
But feelings of being loved as a GF isn't there anymore.
However, it feels so great to just have a walk, talk and even eating together.
Somehow, I just love being around him.


He's my comfort zone. :)

Hopefully things will be even better soon ; 
Its time to get ma' head into books and get my studies done before we get into greater depth.
Time will prove, baby.

My heart is always yours, always.

College has been really hectic lately,
I really doubt myself being an accountant in the future.
What is it that I really love to do in the future ?
I've done this 2 years back & I am still in a dilemma. Oh my.

I love singing, 
I love doing art and craft,
I love drawing,
I love creating stiff,
I love decorating pretty things,
But how am I gonna put this interest into Accounting ?
D: howw ?


I'm afraid I will regret taking this path. /:

My mind is so bothered by many many things,
I just want your guidance, Buddha.
I need your inspirational words to enlightened me.
To free myself from suffering, hatred and delusion.
I want a piece of PeacefulMind.

Will ya ?

Saturday, January 15, 2011

He used to read me.

Do not dwell in the past,
Do not dream of the future,
Concentrate the mind on present moment. ♥


Things has changed and my heart is broken severely,
But that's not gonna stop me from being myself.

The qualities I have before we met,
Will not be taken away even if the love is retrieved. - Sue-Ann

I believe everything is going to be fine one day,
I will certainly get over the pain and sufferings.

Like what the Wise Man once said -
Faith is nourishment, 
Virtuous deeds are shelter, 
Wisdom is the light by day, 
& the right mindfulness is the protection by night.
If man lives a pure life, nothing can destroy him. 

Wei Ting,
Be the person you are and never give up trying.
You can be strong, and before that happens, your mind must be strong.
Don't lose faith and continues to believe that what's yours will be yours.
Love come and go,
But the only one stays and continue to guard you like an Angel.
No matter where the Angel is, you are always protected and loved.

Be contented and happy,
That so many other people concerns.
Don't be selfish and share your love to others as well.
He's not the only person who loved you,
There are many out there waiting for your love.
Appreciate everything in the past, present and also future.
When you have the opportunity,
Never let go of it, instead work hard to achieve the best.
Once you've missed that turning in your life,
You'll regret for the rest of your life.

So please wake up,
Realise that he doesn't want to be part of you anymore,
But don't be sad, don't be down,
Put a smile on your face,
and tell yourself  " It's okay."

To you, my love one.
Although it has been a rough time for us,
Going through happiness and pains,
Ups and downs,
Thick and thin,
It was the best memory in my life.
This feeling for you is so strong,
That I couldn't breathe sometimes.
It hurts so much to know that things weren't working out between us,
My heart aches knowing that we have came to an end.
I was in a dream all these while,
Never realise that it was the End.

My heart shattered,
Flooded with tears of pain and misery.
I really love you very much,
Everything of you is a part of me.
Losing you, and your faith for me,
Is like losing a part of my soul.
There's an empty hole inside my soul,
Waiting for you to come back.
Come back fill my life and soul with pretty colours.
Fill it with happiness and comfort.

But now, you don't need me anymore,
You are strong and determined.
All I can do is to look at you from the corner of my eye,
Think of you, smiling at me and tell me you love me,
Thinking of you when I close my eyes.
I really miss you, baby.
I really do.

Tears strolling down to my cheeks,
and there's never gonna be someone to wipe those tears for me anymore.


我永远爱的只有你一个 

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Day # 22

Days has past, & we're still nowhere.
He hangs out and have fun everyday, while I'm waiting for him everyday.
The feeling and hurt deep inside me, is getting even deeper day by day.

The words that spill out from his mouth, crushes my heart into pieces.
My heart, can never heal anymore. What's left, is a tremendous scar to my broken heart.
He'll never be the same person I first met anymore.

Filled with cruelty and mean act against me.
Treat me cold, and warm as when he likes.
I'm so lost, I don't know what to do.

Tears rolling down my cheeks when the sunlight dawns.
All I feel, is the pain from the knife he pokes through my heart.
He said words, that hurts me really deeply.

He didn't know that I pray for his safety every night.
Radiating Metta and love to him,
My heart still wants him badly.

But just so I realise,
Everything has changed.
Him, us & our feelings.
Its the end of everything.
I'm gonna let go of everything I've every hold onto.

It has been three years,
Through deep and shallow,
Thick and thin,
Now has vanished into the air forever.

-lonely & heartbroken