Why aren't we the same ?

Today is Monday, and Mondays are always great for me.
I love Monday because I get to gather will my colleagues, I get to go night market, and its also the starting of a whole new week.

Few things that is/or might happen :

• This week will be the last week of work,and my last day is on Wednesday (30 June 2010)
• I might be going on vacation before college starts.
• College is starting on 10th June 2010.
• I am definitely getting fatter after college starts because I will be walking lesser, running around lesser, and will be sitting more. Urgh.
• I might get a new lappy / might not too.

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My last weekends were less productive as usual. Saturday, I was over at Bii's place. We woke up pretty late (later than my usual wake ups) and took late breakfast. Overall, we did nothing until late evening. We went out for dinner and then loitered around Sunway Pyramid for one / two hours cause I was bored.

On Sunday, Bii had his friend's wedding lunch. So, I had no choice but to stay at home. I decided to skip Sunday School, and it was time for me to clean up my super-duper messy bedroom. After all the cleaning and lunch, I watched TV and basically Sunday was just dead bored for me. Later at night, Bii came and we went to Amcorp Mall to check out some stuff. Stalls were closed before we arrive, so we missed everything. Then, we went to Taman Megah for dinner in conjunction with night market. Damn, I met my cousins and relatives there. I was so busted that they aren't suppose to know I have boyfriend cause their mindset is so damn old fashioned that they can't accept the fact that teens nowadays DO have boyfriends. And, I am not excluded !

Well, of course I was busted but screw them. We had dinner then left about 10.

On the way home, this issue suddenly stoke my mind. Here's something I would like to share with y'all.

Have you ever thought why God created us in many different height, weight, and looks ?
Well, I don't know why. But, here's the thing, why didn't God make us all the same height, same weight, and all look pretty and handsome ? Well, I was thinking if God made us all the same height, same weight and so on, there will be no discrimination and all those sort of nonsense happening today. Sickness like Bulimia, Anorexia Nervosa won't even occur among girls, cause they all are equally pretty and slim. Right ?

Nowadays, kids love to tease their classmates with different kinds of names and adjectives. Lets just say we were all the same as each other, all these shit won't happen anymore, right ?
Well, the fact is we can't change anything now cause we were made long time ago. This is just something that came to my mind, and I felt like sharing.

Boo hoo!

How Precious moments come and go.

How often do you find someone so attached to you in your life ?  I believe people come, and they'll eventually go. Unless, you hold on to them tight and they'll be there for you.

I would say, being in a relationship isn't something easy neither hard to do. Getting into a relationship is as easy as ABC, but maintaining a relationship is the toughest thing to do. I was young once, and was naive. I never knew how to appreciate relationships when I was younger, say about 15 years old ? That's cause those assholes I was with never appreciated me. I was like a doll to them, when they like me they come to me, when they got bored, they'll just never come back for you. I was dumped by all those assholes in every relationship I got into. Slowly, I just don't believe true love anymore.

Until one day in 2008, I've met him. I met him in a small room, filled with joy and laughter. It was a Sunday morning in conjunction with Mother's Day (2008) , he was performing out there. Singing his lungs out, full with passion and enthusiasm. I knew he was the right one, I just knew. After several weeks, I found out his name from a friend of mine. His name was Q. Ohh, I was so happy, and really HAPPY ! No words could describe how I felt that day.

Friendster was the in-kinda-thing back then. Facebook weren't popular yet. As usual, girls would make use of the search engine looking for friends/guys/relationships bla bla. I wasn't the odd one either. So one day I received an email from the choir group (the group that he performed with). I was stupid enough to take the initiative copying and paste those email address cc-ed in that email to the search engine in Friendster. After all that long long search, I finally found his ! Oh man, I was extremely crazy over him. I moved my mouse towards the 'Add as friend ' button, and quickly click onto it. Since then, I waited for him to accept my request..

After days, I still haven't got accepted as a friend. :( Sad enough, I thought he would think that I stalked him or something. I didn't bother, I proceeded the next step - is to add him on MSN. A faster way to get to him. Brilliant ! :D At that time, I use to have a blog too. I blogged about him very much until that extend of blogging about his biceps and packs. Crazy stuff, yeah I know. If I could recall, I think i MIA-ed for quite a while before I hogged onto the computer desk again.

After a few weeks, he MIA-ed from Sunday School too. Obviously, I was depressed. Disappointed too. I knew if I wanted to talk to him so badly, I had to do something. So then, I went home and sign into my MSN. Suddenly, the task panel at the bottom of my desktop screen was flashing with a orange coloured window. He pm-ed me ! tadaa. I was happy happy HAPPY ! He didn't know who was miko_loh4730... that added him, so he just click onto that address randomly checking who am I. Then he saw my picture, then only he recall my existence.

We continued chatting, chatting chatting. Chatting every night about all the nonsense in this world, but putting a WIDE SMILE on our faces. That feeling was crazy, but mad awesome, ha ha. So one day he asked if I had a blog, and I said yes blindly. I gave him the link, then, I paused. I thought I blogged about him ?! Damn, I totally forgot. I quickly went to my dashboard, tried deleting that post, but in the end I was too late. There, he read it ! Do you know how ashamed I was ? Hey, I'm a girl too and its normal to be shy at the age of 16 ? In my blog, it sounded like I was having a deep crush on him. In fact, I was. :)

After that incident, we became closer. I mean, not intimate close, but just closer and was struggling to get to know each other more every night on MSN. I remember, Nalanda Singing Competition was around that corner. The choir group was assigned to perform that day. and we attended. We sat together throughout the whole competition. I could hear people whispering and giggling behind me. It was pretty embarrassing ya' know ? We had a bus that will drive us back to temple after the competition. Q, came promptly and sat beside me. He talked to me personally and we almost.. kissed. Obviously, we didn't. That's crazy, who would do that? LOL.

One night, he finally asked me a question on MSN, " Would you hire me as your employee ? " - something like that kay, I don't really remember what he said to me. I didn't know what he meant, So I just replied with a " Ha ha xD. " Later on, he asked me in a simpler sentence. I stoned ! I was so surprised that he actually proposed to me. He wanted me as his girlfriend. Omg, of course I said yes lah. Ha ha ! I agreed to him. I remember I was so happy that I was dancing downstairs like Nob.Bus. My sis had me recorded and I'm still keeping that silly video of myself.

We got together since then. Many shits happened, good and bad. We went through all kinds of hardship, challenges, problems, arguments and not to mention, break up too. There's nothing that we have never tried before. All I could say is, I really love this little crazy boy. At times, he might hurt me in someway, but most of the time, he treats me really well. He took care of me when I was sick, he spends time with me once he's free, he'll always carry his HUGE luggage bag all the way from his place to my house and he look like a silly small boy etc. I love the way he bear hug me, I love the way he stroke my hair, I love those stupid things he always says to make me laugh. I just love everything about him, everything.

Nothing is forever, unless you know how to appreciate moments like this. Just always bare in mind that, perfect soul partners don't come easily. When your golden opportunity to be together is just right in your hands, grab it and never let go easily ! Never every let them go, because when your chance slip away, you might have to wait for a long long time to find another perfect one. Or maybe, you might not find the right one anymore. So, lovey couples out there, don't let each other go no matter what happens. Because I've gone through many shits, and I know the consequences. Trust me, you'll find true happiness that way.

Today is 24th - the date we got together , and this is the 1 year 10 month we've been together. I hope we could enjoy this day, happily and joyfully. I love you baby, Kevin Liew.

Cheers to our relationship ! xD

Someone special leaves tonight, toodles Daggles.

That someone, taught me how to walk,
That someone, taught me how to speak,
That someone, taught me how to whistle,
That someone, taught me how to cycle,
That someone, taught me how to draw,
That someone, taught me how to be independant,
That someone, taught me everything,
That someone, is my Daddy.

Recently, Dad came back for a visit since he was having his break from work. He arrived last Friday and *snap* he's leaving tonight. D:

Back then when I was younger, I use to dislike my dad a lot.
He was a very bad-tempered man, who uses force on his children and doesn't listen to anyone. He always thinks he's right in everyway, doesn't wanna accept people's advice, says harsh words that hurts our feelings, vulgary was the only language he speaks and hangs out with his friends all day and night.

When I was form three, I was a rebellious kid. I hanged out with a bunch of losers that treat me like trash. They didn't even treat me as a friend. Maybe I was just nobody, that's all. The point is, I was at a growing stage. I believe every girl in form three nowadays had a relationship before. Even kids in primary school does have a partners too. Cute. So I was one of them back then, I got myself into a relationship. They guy, X was older than me by 2/3 years. I couldn't recall. I was naive and pure minded. Enjoying moments with X was the only thing in mind.

One day, I called along my best friend, C to skip school with me. I wanted to skip school was because to go look for X. Since C was my best friends, of course she agreed. So we went all the way to Subang just to look for X. C took the opportunity to look for her bf too. Suddenly we received an unknown call, we answered the call and found out it was our school's disciplinary teacher. Someone told her, they saw us but didn't attend for school.

We were so busted, so we quickly took a cab back to school so that the teacher wouldn't call our parents. Yea right, as if they won't. I told you, we were naive. So we manage to arrive school before school ends, C's parents were there but mine didn't turn up. Phew, so I thought I'd escape from the scoldings and nagging.

Who knows, when I reach home. Dad called up, he said, "Where are you girl ? Its okay, next tmie don't do it anymore. " and bla bla bla. So I thought I really escaped this whole shit. One night, I was talking on the phone with X secretly in my room. BAAM ! My door flung open wide. I looked up, a man standing at my doorway. It was my Dad. He took my phone and slam it on the floor without mercy. He gave me a few slaps on my face till reds flowing out from my nostrils.

I begged to be forgiven, but he didn't care. Dad continues to hit me. He asked me to stop contacting X and concentrate on my studies. I was so mad at him, and wanted to tell him that he doesn't even care about us. All he knows is to hang out with his lousy friends that make him drunk every night. I didn't have the guts, so I continued getting hit.

Until the moment my Dad finally shut down his business and left Malaysia to Dubai for work, I finally realise how important his presence was. He was the person that supported my siblings and I in everyway, studies, food, accomodation, transport etc. He was the one that gave us life, gave us family, gave us every essential things in life. Until today, I never dislike him anymore. Although he still has his attitude with him, I could just forgive him cause he'll always be my daddy. He's genius and a hero in our hearts.

This post is dedicated to my Dad, Happy Father's Day !

p/s : We love you ♥

Promises are crucial, trust me.

People often make promises all over the world. But, how often do they actually fulfill their promises ? That’s the problem here.


For the past months, I have been dealing with friends who complain about friends that break promises, children who are mad at their parents for not doing what they have promised, girlfriend/boyfriend who break promises and so forth. Honest speaking, I am also one of them who break promises easily. But what’s the BIG deal once you’ve made a promise ?


The BIG deal is, people trusted us for making a promise. And, if you don’t do what you promise, damn, you’re busted. People just won’t trust you anymore. You can do it once, twice, but not the third time. Ask yourself, how often do you fulfill your promises ?


Parents are one of the bad examples for breaking promises to their kids. My parents, are one of them too. It feel really suck when your parents promise you to get you something you really longed for it. And one day, BOOM ! They just tell you, ” Girl, mummy/ daddy don’t have money now. Next time kay ? Mummy/Daddy promise, next time will buy for you.” *smile widely* Pfft. That really, really sucks.

Or they could even say ” Lets go for a holiday this weekend, kids ! Where do you guys wanna go ? ” and we go, ” Yay ! Lets go Genting, very long didn’t go ady !!! *sounds really excited* , ” Okay ! ” .. Few hours later, someone calls Mummy/Daddy. ” Kids, Daddy have work this weekend, so we can’t go Genting already. Next time kay ! “ *smiles sgain*


Kids are very particular on what parents have promised them. So parents, do not ever, EVER make empty promises to your kids. Because kids can be haunting you for what you have promised them. And when you break them, your kids will be superb disappointed at you. And they will not trust you anymore. The next time you say you’re buying them a PSP, they’ll go ” Yea..right. “ This is what you’re gonna be facing throughout your life. Do you want that ? I doubt so. So make a change now, parents.

 Promises made between couples is also a crucial matter these days. Do you see couples quarelling over small things everywhere ? Yes, I’m one of them. No matter the promise is MASSIVE or tiny, everything counts. When you’re in a relationship, obviously, you really care for each other. Every damn thing of them matters to you. Unless you don’t love your partner They became related to you somehow, just like parents and kids. You’re the special someone to your partner, naturally, they’ll have trust in you. And when you make a promise, FULFILL them ! Do not break them, cause you”ll eventually break their hearts too. Trust me, I have experienced this gazillion times in my life. I feel really bad for breaking the promises I did to my boyfriend, cause he will look really disappointed. That’s when I know, I’ve hurt him badly.


So I constantly tell myself, do not repeat this same silly mistake because this will not make the best out of yourself but will only hurt the one that matters a lot to you. Trust me ,


In order to live a happy life with your family, friends, and even your partners. Just remember to do what you have promised, and never let them down.


Ameego !